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“Nom de Dieu,” Celine cursed as she almost collided with a
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stout man clutching an empty bottle of port. Bastien pulled back in a seamless motion, spinning them about, away from the
budding confusion.
Before they could take in a breath, three young women turned
the corner, pulling short a hairsbreadth from Bastien and
Celine. Blue ostrich feathers fanned about their heads, their
wide belts fashioned of satin and sparkling beads in an array of
rainbow colors, their skirts constructed of layers of translucent tulle. Fabric rosettes covered the centers of their breasts.
The rest of their pale skin was bare.
Bastien laughed as the women harrumphed at a stunned
Celine, rounding her with ease.
“Faites attention,” he whispered in her ear, his tone teasing.
She glanced over her shoulder—armed with a retort—when
a tall figure wearing a terrifying mask lunged for them, the fur
around its face trembling, its walnut-shell claws nearly grazing
their shoulders.
Celine stifled a cry as she stepped back into Bastien, who
wrapped a steadying arm around her waist.
The man in the furred mask angled his head to the sky. Bayed
once. “Méfiez-vous du rougarou!” He drew out the last word
into another howl, then spun about in an awkward dance.
Celine’s eyes went wide. Though her heart still pounded, a smile
tugged at the edges of her lips. Bastien laughed, then bowed at
the masked man, who proceeded to lope in another direction.
“Beware the . . . what did he say?” Celine tilted her head,
struggling to be heard over the commotion.
“The rougarou.”
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Celine blinked. “What is a rougarou?” she asked loudly.
“A creature of darkness meant to instill fear in the hearts of
children.” Bastien sent her a lighthearted grin, his gaze glit-
tering. “Half man, half wolf, it prowls the swamps and forests
beneath the light of the moon, hunting for its next kill.”
Though he spoke in obvious jest, Celine could not ignore the
strange pull in her stomach. Something inhuman had attacked
her less than half an hour ago. The worst of her nightmares had
become very real possibilities. Was this a creature of fact or
fiction?
Bastien’s features softened with understanding. “Don’t worry.
A rougarou exists only in our imagination.”
“And in your imagination, what does it kill?” she asked
carefully.
“Bad Catholics.”
A rush of unexpected laughter burst from Celine’s lips. “You
can’t be serious.”
He peaked a brow. “Make sure you keep all your promises
during Lent.” He leaned close, electrifying the skin beneath
her ear, sending a chill from her neck down to her toes. “Or
méfiez-vous du rougarou.”
Celine laughed again, shoving him away.
“Regardez!” a throaty voice commanded nearby.
Bastien and Celine followed the directive, turning to look to
one side.
Four elderly women with dark skin stood in a semicircle, the
eldest at its center waving a hand in Bastien’s direction.
“C’est un beau diable,” she declared, the other women around
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her chortling in response. “Do you not agree?” she asked Celine.
Celine answered with a humorless nod. Bastien was indeed a
beautiful devil.
The lady held out her wrinkled hands. “Dance with me, beau
diable,” she ordered Bastien.
Without the slightest hesitation, he swept her up in his arms
as the beat of a festive quadrille blared into the night sky, the drums and violins soaring in tandem. Soon other couples joined
in, until a small corner of the street moved in a familiar pattern, changing partners, weaving in and out of each other like the
reeds of a basket coming together.
Celine found herself pulled into the mêlée, brushing past
hands and shoulders, flashing around blurring faces, the sweat
dripping from her brow, the hem of her salmon-striped skirt
kicking up a whirl of red dust around her feet.
When the quadrille ended—a new melody quick to take its
place—Celine laughed loudly and clapped with the dispersing
crowd. Then she glanced across the way to find Bastien watch-
ing her, a strange look on his face.
They held each other’s gazes as they all but collided in the
center of the street.
“You dance well,” Celine said with an awkward smile.
“As do you.”
She made a face. “I was a bit uncertain about the steps. There
haven’t been many occasions for me to dance.”
“We should remedy that.” Bastien brushed the settling dust
from his shoulders. “And dancing well isn’t about knowing the
steps. It’s about knowing yourself.”
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“That’s a bit trite, don’t you think?”
His lips pushed forward. “Trite? Why would it be trite to
know oneself?”
“I only meant—do we ever truly know ourselves?”
“I should hope so. Knowing who you are is necessary in
order to determine who you want to be.” Bastien looked to
Celine for cues on where to proceed. Without a word, she
began winding through the fringes of the crowd, moving in
the direction of the convent, reassured by the feeling of his
palm against the small of her back.
Once they’d cleared the parade, Celine shifted beside
Bastien, at ease for the first time since leaving Jacques’, when
her chief concern had been the recent humiliation she’d
suffered at Odette’s hands. Celine almost laughed at herself. To
think that had happened less than an hour ago.
But none of it mattered now. Not much, at least.
Her fingers no longer trembled. Her ribs no longer constricted
her heart. She didn’t yet feel entirely safe, but at least she no longer felt afraid.
And she was thankful.
For the length of the next city block, Celine considered the
last thing Bastien had said. “If knowing who you are is a neces-
sary part of knowing who you will become, then who are you,
Sébastien Saint Germain?”
He snorted. “I should warn you, turnabout is fair play.”
Celine paused in deliberation. “Tonight, I agree. From this
point onward, let’s deal only in truths.”
“And tomorrow?”
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“We’ll return to cloaking ourselves in comfortable lies.”
Bastien laughed, the sound rich and resonant. “Very well,
then. Who am I?” he mused. “I’m . . . a man.” Something glinted
in his gaze.
Celine eyed him sidelong, her expression sardonic.
“I’m the son of people from different worlds,�
�� he continued,
his smile lingering. “My mother was a free woman of color, and
my father was Taíno.” He paused. “For too short a time, I was
also”—a shadow crossed his face—“a brother. After I lost my
family, I became a nephew. My uncle brought me back to New
Orleans at the age of nine, and I lived here until I was sent to the academy, where—barring a rather unfortunate incident—I almost became a soldier.” A hint of bitter amusement touched his
lips. “Now I handle my uncle’s affairs when he is away on busi-
ness.” He raised a shoulder. “I suppose that’s the whole of it.”
Celine refrained from calling him out. Bastien may not have
told any falsehoods, but he’d obfuscated the truth, distilling the whole of his life down to nothing more than a few particulars. A
fount of questions gathered in her throat. Michael’s admonition
from days earlier rang through her mind, spurring her to press
Bastien for details, so that she might understand the full extent of the Ghost’s unhappy tale.
She chose to ignore this desire. It would be easier to take on
those concerns tomorrow than bear their weight tonight.
“You can ask me, Celine,” Bastien said. “After all, Michael
didn’t tell you everything.” Caustic humor laced his words.
“Of course he didn’t. I’m certain it hasn’t escaped your notice
how much he hates you.”
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“The feeling is most assuredly mutual.” His grin reeked of arrogance.
“May I ask why?”
“You may. But I may not answer. Since I promised not to lie.”
Celine’s lips were caught between silence and speech for an
instant. “Very well,” she grumbled. “For what it’s worth, Arjun
is a wretched spy.”
He snorted. “As well as an excellent attorney.”
“For fiends and scoundrels alike.” She paused. “But in all
seriousness . . . what happened to your family?” This, at least,
she wished to know in this moment.
A look of blank apathy settled onto his beautiful face. “My
mother died six months after my sister. Following their deaths,
my father took me from New Orleans to Saint Domingue. He
fell ill soon thereafter, so we moved to his home in San Juan.”
“And . . . how did your sister die?”
“She was killed in an accident, at the age of fifteen.” Though
Bastien’s reply sounded indifferent, his features hardened
for an instant, anger flashing behind his eyes before his art-
ful mask slipped back into place. There was a story there. A
source of immense pain. But Celine did not wish to press
Bastien on the matter. Not yet. “My father succumbed to
his illness a short while later, after which I returned to New
Orleans,” he finished.
An invisible hand gripped Celine’s heart in a vise. It troubled
her how Bastien spoke about loss in such a matter-of-fact tone.
Perhaps that was how he talked about things that truly mat-
tered to him, in cold, detached fashion.
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“I’ve heard many people say tragedy shapes us,” Bastien continued. “But I am not the worst thing that’s ever happened to
me, nor am I the worst thing I’ve ever done. Nothing in life
is that simple.” He looked across the darkened streets of New
Orleans, his gaze steady. Determined.
His words were like a blow to Celine. Every day she denied
parts of herself. Tried to hide the worst thing that had hap-
pened to her, the worst thing she’d ever done. Her entire life,
she’d denied who her mother was, as if it were some kind of
great shame. Because of this, she knew nothing about half her
past. Half of her own story.
Since the age of four, she’d been told this was the only way.
“Do you ever wish you could be someone else?” Celine asked,
her tone solemn.
“Often. Especially when I was a boy.” Bastien turned toward
her. “And you?”
Celine blanched.
“Don’t lie to me.” Bastien repeated her earlier words: “Tonight
we deal only in truths.”
“Which is . . . difficult, since my whole life is built on a lie.”
It was honest. More honest than Celine had ever been with
anyone in her life.
She breathed in deeply through her nose. “My mother was
from a Far Eastern country. I was never told which one. But . . .
I am of mixed heritage, from a marriage of East and West,”
Celine blurted, almost as if her own admission startled her.
“I’ve never said that to a soul,” she finished in a rush.
And yet the words fell from her lips with surprising ease.
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Bastien studied her while they walked. Whatever his thoughts were, he concealed them well.
Her head remarkably cool, Celine trained her eyes on the
grey pavestones ahead. “When my father and I came to Paris,
I was very young. He told me to keep who my mother was a
secret. He said if the world knew, I would live with derision
for the rest of my life. So I listened, and I lied. And . . . I feel ashamed for it. It’s as if this lie has become an essential part
of my truth, like a kind of twisted keystone. So much so, that
I don’t know how to”—she struggled for a moment—“how to
think or behave any differently, lest the whole thing crumble
to pieces.”
There. Several painful truths unmasked. Truths she’d been
incapable of admitting even to herself. It surprised her that—
of all the people she’d encountered thus far—she’d decided to
share these truths with Bastien.
Celine waited in silence for a time, pondering this realization.
Wishing she could ignore the meaning behind it.
“I’m sorry for your pain, Celine,” Bastien said in a subdued
tone. “Thank you for trusting me with your truth.”
A sharp twinge cut through her chest, making it difficult to
respond at first.
Finally Celine spoke, her voice a soft brush of sound. “And I’m
sorry for your pain, Bastien. I think trust is a precious thing.
Know that I will always treat yours as such.”
He looked at her, his eyes a liquid silver. “Merci, mon coeur.
From my heart to yours.”
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They walked the rest of the way toward the Ursuline convent
with nothing accompanying them but the chirruping of insects
and the whispering of palm fronds. Once they rounded the fi-
nal bend—the convent looming tall in the darkness—Celine
tilted her head toward the lace of stars around the sickle moon,
their cool light surging through her veins. Bastien stopped be-
side her, though he did not follow her gaze.
“Are the stars that captivating?” he teased in a gentle tone.
“Of course they are,” she said without looking away. “They’re
infinite. They see all a
nd know all. These same stars hung in the sky during the times of Michelangelo and Shakespeare. Isn’t
that fascinating?”
Bastien sighed, the sound grim. “I’ll never understand the
fascination with the infinite. There is an end to everything, to
good things as well.”
“Chaucer was an ass.” Celine glanced at him, a brow quirked with
amusement. “And the infinite captivates us because it allows us to believe all things are possible. That true love can last beyond time.”
He did not reply. Instead his eyes bored into hers, the lashes
above them thick. Deliciously sooty. When Celine looked away,
Bastien cleared his throat, pausing to check his pulse.
“You did it again,” Celine said.
“What?”
“You often check your pulse. I’m curious as to why.”
A sardonic smile took shape on Bastien’s face. “To remind
myself I’m human.”
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That same strange feeling gripped Celine again. That feeling of something eluding her grasp. Something . . . important. Before she could stop herself, she asked, “Are you?”
Her question caught Bastien off guard. He stared down at her,
his perfect lips pushing forward with slow deliberation. Then
he took her hand and pressed it to the side of his neck. Beneath
Celine’s fingertips drummed a steady heartbeat. One that be-
gan to race at her touch, its warmth tingling through her body.
Bastien held both their hands there for a time, aware his pulse
betrayed him. Aware and seemingly unconcerned.
The heart doesn’t lie, Michael had said.
Celine let her shaking hand fall. And decided to ignore all
common sense. “Since we’re dealing in truths for this one night,
I wanted to say I’m attracted to you.”
“And I’m attracted to you.” Bastien did not hesitate in this
admission.
She stared up at him, her eyes unflinching. “Earlier this
evening, I wanted to kiss you.”
“I’ve wanted to kiss you since the night we first saw each other
in Jackson Square.”
“You remembered,” she murmured. “I thought you had
forgotten.”
Bastien canted his head. “How could I forget? You surprised
me. It had been a long time since anything surprised me.”
Celine blinked. “I surprised you?”
He laughed. Then his expression turned serious. “One day,
someone should tell you how beautiful you are in the moon-